I miss my nephews....

There are just some people who will always remain where they are....

Hi World... I have been missing in action for a while... well many reasons for it... some good some bad... all in all, zero sum game...

one of the things I dislike is to go for formal parties where everyone is "smoozing" around...you know the type of party where there is a lot of air kissing and no meaningful conversation.... it is about everything and nothing at the same time.... almost without fail the conversation starts with 'oh the markets have been brutal today'...... which most certainly makes me scramble to safer pastures... not for anything but the fact that it is such a boring topic to discuss at night.... but that is the pitfall of a corporate life... it is all about externalities... the show and show off of it....

In other news I am actually worried about this government... I mean I believe in the policies of the Congress party.. and think that Congress is the only viable option right now... but the way the Government is scrambling from one crisis to another is really worrying..... it seems as if the Government does not have a head... it is moving all around in the hope of finding its head.... I am really worried... will this bring back communal forces in our country??? will this boost the support for BJP?? I sure hope not..... as I keep saying.. given a choice between a corrupt but trying not to be government and a government which sponsored killings... I would very happily choose the former.... to think the BJP is going hammer and tongs at this government when its own stable is far from clean... and added to that they fete Modi as if he is the answer to all our prayers.... yes, he might be a good administrator ... but that does not make good the wrong he connivived to do in Gujarat... the fact that he advised the Government machinery to keep quiet when law and order was at its worst is a sign of an oppportunist government ... not a good government....

Few reasons why I hope Modi will never make it to national stage..... first off, he does not have global appeal... can you imagine Modi being acceptable to a group of malayalis? or him understanding what Kerala wants... Modi appears too much of a Gujarati...he keep extolling the vitues of Gujarat and how much progress there is... but the fact of the matter is that Modi already had a good thing going when he started out... he inherited a state which had surplus and a business community which was good at making money.... would he have the same success rate if he were to be given a state like Sikkim... that is the challenge.... and that requires a lot of knowledge about India... which I genuinely dont find Modi having right now... and finally, the blot of the riots will never leave Modi... he is always going to be the person who ensured that helpless women and men were killed by certain miscreants only because it suited him politically... I cannot forgive a man who did that... I sure hope India never does... if he were to become PM, then like the British would say "God save the country"....

It actually works!

I am sorry

One of the recent incidents in my life opened my eyes to how prejudiced I am even though I put up a facade ....

It was a tough negotiation that I had to attend... for a personal matter...and hence didnt have all the confidence that comes with knowledge of law... it was for a purely personal matter and I knew the other side was going to negotiate hard... I checked around... and I was told by several "experienced" people that I should not go alone... why???... "cos you are a woman" they lamented.... so? ... "nobody would take you seriously then"....ok... "you should go with a man - optically that will make the other side feel that you cant be taken for a ride"...

I started asking for some "male" presence to take along for my meeting... I pleaded with my cousin, my friends and every conceivable trustworthy male.... since it was last minute many were unable to attend..... I was distraught.... and scared.... what if I am not able to handle myself....what if the other side chews me up and spits me out..... and looks at me and says "ha, you, a woman, could even think of speaking like this?"... and I would walk away with tears flowing... yes, I am very bollywood in my thinking...

Till a (male) friend asked me.... you are a lawyer in the top law firm of the country... you do this for a living... and you are scared of negotiating??? and that too in Mumbai??? Who told you such nonsense...

And now comes the time for me to say sorry.... Sorry that I believed people who sought to scare me ... who sought to make me believe that I would be handicapped if I am a woman....that I am not as good as a man even if I am more educated ....

I am sorry God for not believing what you have created... for not believing in the talent that you have given me... for undervaluing me..... Really Sorry....

It is sad but true that sometime people who are closest to you are likely to be most jealous of you....

I sometimes get irritated with questions... some questions just make me want to throw the candle stick (if it is nearby) at the person....some of these questions are:

a. Where are you going?
b. Who are you going out with?
c. How much do you earn?
d. Whose party are you going for?