so finally I am off for my annual vacation.... so looking forward to it.....where??? well you can see from the pics when I come back.....

Happy New Year people.... Mayans said that the world will end... I say the world as we know it will end today... and a new world is going to start....

Modi wins in Gujarat - so he can now become PM of India now? So since when did Gujarat decide who MY PM should be???? crazy world... I hope to God that Modi does not become the PM of this country....its simply because, despite his capabilities etc, I still see him as the man who decided to let evil take control.... and that is just unacceptable to me.... does he show remorse?? nope, which makes it worse...

In other news, life has been hectic lately for me... it has been mainly a lot of social functions and catching up.... all  good... and throughly enjoying myself with my new found social butterfly status... truth be told I am actually a very private person... I keep to myself many days and dont want to mingle... my idea of a perfect evening is to have friends over and watch some movie or the other.... and just chat... I am not too much of a clubbing person so I cringe everytime someone asks me to come to a club... but now I have overcome that as well... I now go once in a while... and realised that with friends even a club can be fun....

I recently met one of old classmates... now meeting old classmates is always a tricky business.... now most remember you from law school... with all your problems and crazy phase... and not many are willing to see a new you... and try to pull you back into the old mould .... and that is exactly what happened with this classmate..... it was in short very unpleasant... I felt like i was sitting through an inquisition.... justifying my life and choices.... net net I didnt see much value in keeping in touch....

does that happen with everybody??? your past remains in the past?

Crutch

There is something nice about being a crutch to someone in your life... I have been a crutch to many people in my life... helping them through their life challenges, be it a relationship breakup, family disputes, general disputes...  In my books, if these people were going through a tough time it was upto me to see them through that crisis... and I think I did.... I saw it as my responsibility to help them... and I felt nice about helping them as well... there have been many people in my life for whom I have been the crutch....

however I have noticed one trend.... the people I have been there the most as a crutch have invariably let me down... let me down terribly in fact... while I would not call it keeping a count, these are the people I expected a lot from .... simply cos I was there for them... and as weak as I am I expected them to stick by me when I needed them... be it taking a stand on an issue, giving me respect or even standing up for me in front of others.... almost without fail, these same people have let me down without any qualms.... it is almost like, they know they cant get me to be a bad person and hence they can be selfish (and probably declare it so) and declare it openly to me... "yes, I was selfish.. I am sorry for that"... as if it is somehow supposed to make me feel better that they are being honest with me... or simply to state that I like you a lot but I cannot go the distance with you as far this issue is concerned... you are on your own and I am on your own.. btw thanks for all the support you gave me when I was down and out... but sorry I cannot do the same for you.. you got yourself in this situation and you should know how to handle it...

everytime it has happened I have looked at myself as a failure.... for having trusted these people to stand up for me... for once, think about me and take a stand (even if inconvenient)... for once, show me that they can go the distance for me....

Contrast this with other people.... for whom I have never been  there as much I have been for these people... and they have taken care of me as if I belong to them.... selflessly.....

so is it me or just these people? should I just stop caring about people? or doing things for people? and especially should I just be selfish?

I wonder whether these people how I did turn my life around to help them and be with them...

 

So the Govt wins the vote in the Rajya Sabha as well....  I am hearing the BJP crying foul over this vote ... .they say that the Congress manipulated the entire voting process....

now tell me... what is the govt to do? if being in the Govt they cant take important decisions, then how will the country ever progress... so my question is, if to get some good, the government indulges in some horse trading - is that bad?

kudos to the floor managers of Congress... they pulled it off..

Ahh... so many things happening... so many things to do.... and I cant seem to stop myself from taking on everything as it comes along...

this morning my personal trainer paid me the best compliment that I could have ever asked for.... he asked me whether I ran in the marathon.... and this as i was lying down on the ground gasping for breath after he had made me do a mini running session... I raised my weak head to ask him "no, why?"... my trainer replied "you should run the marathon. You have very good style of running"... wwoowwwww... coming from a trainer that is a sure compliment... and if I may say so at this age... .I was elated and ecstatic.... I was back in the game people... after piling on the pounds over the last one year I have now reached a stage where the trainer thinks I can indeed run the marathon... well done Alice....

so in my new found enthusiasm I decided to reconnect with all the activities I had stopped.... and decided to give my shooting one more chance.... for the ignorant, I had completed a course on rifle shooting in the year 2010... and really enjoyed it ... I do believe if I concentrate I can actually be a good shooter... the problem is that I dont concentrate.... I start thinking about many things and get distracted...

so 2013, you have a lot of exciting things to look forward to from me....

So Sri Ravi Shankar makes a statement today that India has become land of scams and slums....

Seriously??? now when did he think India was better off in the past??? does he really think we have more slums and scams now??? and what does he request we do ? stop everything this country is doing? so that we can get back to his concept of what India is like...

People who are not in charge of changing India should not give opinions without the necessary research..... its so easy to be an armchair politician... you have no liability and no accountability....

Do you remember your first date?

I never thought of this question until very recently when I was asked about my first date ever.... clearly I did not consider it to be a milestone in my life otherwise I would have remembered it.... but since I was asked this question ....

now let me think back... my first ever date would have to be in the first month of law school... with a senior of mine... he was one of the few people who ragged me... and then finally we ended up going out for some movie and dinner date... although if I recollect it was never styled or positioned as a date... we were just going out..... I do remember having a good time at the date..... while the date didnt go anywhere and the senior and me did not end up anywhere meaningful, i remember feeling like it was the beginning of a new life for me... I was all of 17/18 and for me to break the code of not mixing with the boys was a great high...

and my new life did infact begin....